just out of reach

long distance relationships are hard.  everyone knows this.  and the people who tell me 'you can't live like this' because i chose to leave at 5 a.m. Monday morning rather that drive Sunday night just so that I could have one more delicious night of sleep wrapped in his arms obviously is lacking something in their relationship or don't know that this kind of sleep is the best sleep i've ever had.  and it's hard to leave knowing i won't see him for at least another week and a half until we come together for Thanksgiving.  but i think it'd be less difficult if there weren't this weekend seperating us when we're just 4 hrs apart and fully capable of hopping into a car and making the drive.  the rational side of me knows that i need to take care of things long neglected around my house but the cranky side of me, the one who hasn't had a decent night sleep since last Sunday night, is still considering the logistics of a drive down there after work tonight.  maybe if there were the cost of a plane ticket seperating us, i wouldn't spend hours considering the consequences of a winter where the gutters didn't get cleared out.